7 posts tagged “love”

I hate this day.....i do...really....but what ever i got the BIGGEST SMILE! When i logged onto vox today Cory Roberts drew this  !!!!      BE JEALOUS!!!!!!!! <333 Made v-day a good day!! hehhee

I need to do todays VIDEO OF THE DAY!! Once again is Alice Nine (fan girl scream) It's "The Sexiest Of Alice Nine:Get Low"

22 seconds = pure sex....no joke lookie and u will see Saga doing yummy things...

GARGLE! I am so tired....>.< HEY the picture is of my sleepin...gee i think Cory reads my blog....>.< i sleep WAYYYYYYYYYYY to much...u think so? yah me to..

OOHHHYAHHZ i started watchign Death Note today im on numba 4 so far i likes it im watchin it with eng subs!!!! yayyayayayyayayayyaya anime+music= love for eva!

Well ima go watch m or edeath note then off to bed.. <33333333333333333 muchlove to teh hommies I MEAN IT WATCH THE VIDEO!

I have been listing to WAYY to much JRock Alice Nine, Antic Cafe and Die en Grey! OMFG!! I LOVE IT!!!! Buutt i love this song from Alice nine. The words have GREAT meaning.. ^_^ I wish i didn't need to look up the words T_T But here they are.

But yah i am SOO Hooked on taht song ^_^

So Zack was going to pay for my WoW yesterday but we found otu taht you had to buy a retail copy of the game for the code thingy. Well he got REALLY REALLY depressed about it because he felt he had failed me again, because he hadn't looked into it sooner. But in the end his grandma bought me WoW. ^_^ I love grandma she just was like all of a sudden i'll buy it for her. I can't believe that. :D But what ever. So today they bought it and Zack and i were playing but the internet kept crashing ( Were starting to have problems with it again) Dad started having fits saying it was my fault. ( Only mine because Kane got his taken away.) So after like tghe 4th time of it crashing Zack went to go play Halo 3 and so i went in to my mom with my math and we did math together for a bit them i asked her if she wanted to play on the game cube she said yah so i kicked her ass( and she kicked mine to) at Soul Caliber 2 and then we played Mario Cart together. I like playing those games with my mum. It's the only "civil"/good/fun time i have with her really. So we have been doing it alot here lately it's been pretty fun i have to say.

OOHH yah my mom pierced my ear yesterday to. Like i had done one of my ears a few weeks ago but it was my right ear. (Im left handed.) I couldn't do my left ear so i asked her to do it. We had to do it twice once with something small ( A needle) but we couldn't get the earing thought so we used something bigger ( a corkboard push pin) and a potao behind my ear. But heres the funny part. My mom was having me numb my ear. So after like 10 min she asked me if it was done yet i said IDk so she said to take the ice off of it adn flicked it HARD with her long nails. I thought i was going to lose my ear Kinda like Nirtosoxcide liek it was goign to shatter thats how badly it hurt T_T But it was funny now im just waiting for it to heal. It's looking really good though. ^_^

Well i think i am going to call Zack now he said to call at 10:00 his time it's now 10:04 so yah.. ^_^ Night everyone love yall

<3's Kayty

Havent had a chance to post.

Soooo much has happened....m going on vacation to flordia i guess Zack was about to break up with me. Zack almost killed him self. I am turning my life around. Like no joke everythign is changing not all for the better but im changing alot of my habits and stuff....im doing school work. I don't really know what all to put here. i will blog at least once a week form now on though that i can promise you!!!! <3

So i was almost done posting when my mm asks me to go make bread real fast. No prob. Well i come back my PC had shut off and deleated all my cookies...so now i have to RE POST T_T GOD FRIKIN DARN IT! ok well lets start over again.

So i was goign to break up with Zack....cuz i had it with all his shit..but when i was about to say it, it hit me that even the shit i hate about him makes me love him even more. So i gave him one last chance to help me make things better with me because even though i accept/love that stuff it still hurts. So we agreed on one last chance to compromise with everything.  Last night b4 we hung up i said i wasent the angel ( He had called me an angel a few min b4) you are. All of a sudden he kinda made that gasps of pain that i get alot, along with about to cry. He said that he was no angel that he was far form it because of everythign he has done to me. I told him that everyday he saves me...frm my self. He saves me from doing things and my own head. I was going to cut yet another star into my right leg but then i thought about him, so i stoped laid back on my bed cluched Mr. Bunny to me adn cried for a good 30 min. I said some other things adn said " So baby... you ARE the angel. Not me." He calls me an angel with no reason at all just that i am. Well that ( to me) means i am not one. But to ME he is one because fo what he does for me. But anyway....

I finished Cobwebs and started the book Maybe...well i like books that show real pain in life... it's kinda hard to find that really. Well when i was reading this book it shows how life really is in the bear. It's about a boy named Brain whos brother died. His parents move to a new place near the ocean in Cali because Brain had lived there his entire life but also lost his brother there his parents thought it was time to move. Well he gets to school and is a total boy with the whole sex thing well he also gets into a drama club ect it's kinda about the pain/loss/love of life. I highly recommend it!

Well i think thats about it for now. So i will probly try and post later on tonight!! <33 love ya

Kayty

Well my dad has been shuting off the internet b4 i can post so i haven't been able to. B8ut here is the recap of last night and today.

LAST NIGHT

    Well i call Zack after my parents go to bed. So he jacks off. Yes i will put that here. He did it so that i "couldn't here" but i knew that was what he was doign cuz i knew he was watcign porn. What a loser right? Well anyway so he gets down adn im reading ignoring him. Well he says MAYBE 2 things to me i know hes done because he staets this but he still says like nothing to me os i go back to reading because i had laied back down in the dark well we sit there for over an hour in siliance. Well he decides cuz he "fell asleep" that he was goign to go...i was feelign depressed anyway but that just topped it off i wanted to TALK to him i wanted to hear him tell me he loved me more but i make no fuss and let him go to bed. Well i hang up the phone and ball my eyes out for a few....like HARD i haven't cried that hard in a LONG time. Well i guess the phone issed the reciver by a few inches and so he heard..i HONESTLY didn't mean for him to hear but anyway. So i remove te phone from nmy bed put it on the table and work in photoshop for a few. Then go to bed.

THE MORNING

Well last night he said he was goign to call in the morning well ok np i'll pick up...i didn't hear it ring and my mom didnt click that it was Zack because of the time. Well she woke me up almost an hour after he called because she was going out for the day with her friend Kate so i relize OMFG ZACK! I look and sure enough he had called i call back in a panic hopeing he is still there he is and he says he heard. I was like what he kept saying i heard it alst night. Well i cry alot when the 2 of us hang up the phone because i just wish he could be with me so badly...ect. Well finialy he tells me what and he sounded so ..sad...well that makes me cry again and he started talking about if he made me feel that bad taht maybe he should leave so tat in the end i would be happier. Well crying and shit happened and he dicided to stay and things kinda perked up after about an hour he asks me if i want him to stay home from school after dicussing it i say yes. He asks him mom so that was a no go. But what ever he promised me no matter what he would call he didn't BTW i call him and FAIL. But what ever. My day in general....after hanging up the phoen for some reason i felt very happy so i did my chores played with my dogs ate and read over 300 pages in my book in less than 5 hours! Thatsa like doign really good for me along with dancing around like a fuckin moron! lol Then mom came home and iw as talkign to Adam on myspace we decided that we were going to hang out we did after we were done eating we chilled with my annoying fucking bro for a bit then Adam and i sat in a place where he would leave us alone and we talked for a while kinda huddled together talking about everything. Then after a while we kissed and hugged and said good night. That was that.. then i called Zack cus he hadent called me and thats where we are now. We talked for 2 hours he is eateign i am calling him back in a few min. So yah.......oh and David was talking about well here.....

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: David
Date: Jan 11, 2008 6:42 PM

I'll be waiting babe lol

s it wrong for me to ignore my girlfriend because I have feelings for someone else...?

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So i tell him ok ( old convo we always say babe and baby i do it with Ryan/Kevin/Zack/David and Blaine and those people only.) and I don't know because  i didn't know what to say he has been having girl problems for the past few weeks and well he just got this girl like 2 days ago and broke up with her. Well so i begg him to tell me who it is he wont tell me he wont tell me so i keep thinking it's e or it's heather again. Well it's not heather because i got it  out of him he said it was me. I wish kinda that i could go out with him. he lived 4 hours away. He has a job he has the same interests as me or is willing to learn or just accept them as they are Zack's not like that. But i love zack SOOOOOO much but i don't know what about him he has Dona also and i dont know......but i now i want to stay with him because i think i TRULY love him.....but i just go though times more frequent here in the past week that he just loves me as a friend not like i love him...but what ever. I am going to call him and go to bed. Good ngit hall i love yalll!!

Welll i didn't know what to name it!! I just ran into a damn 404 error! lol ^_^

Well today went ok i guess....last night i talked to Zack until LATE LATE i am loving staying up late with him again. We/ well I had fun we made everything better even if only for a bit. I went to sleep right after we hung up. That happens only when i feel sorta at peace. Then i woke up feeling really bad because my family and i went to big lots and walked around for like ever then Adam and i walked around for like ever. ( Let me finish about today and i will tell about last night with Adam)  Woke up was forced to start cleaning my room....euck.....from there i did that until i started making the banner for my blog. I think it looks pretty damn good. I mean yah some spots are kinda bad but everyone that has seen it loves it to death. ^_^ I started to feel really bad after noon though. But it's all good. I called Zack and got happy. Then he went to eat and i went and asked my dad if i could have a folder on his server so that i cudl work on a layout for my webpage that i want. So i am working on that!!!!!! Now i am talking to him!

Now about last night with Adam. Well he comes over at like 7pm and we start walking towards the drive in theater behind my house where we always go. They are tearing it down so a bunch of the walls were out but everything was still "safe" to walk in side and such well we walked around there for a bit and he pushed me on the merry go round for a bit we talked. I asked him if he was easily freaked out of anything and he said no so i took him back to the woods there not very big you can see each side because of the lights that show through it's like 5 acars total. Well we were talkin and walkin and we find this BIG BIG tree that was cut down du to the fact the they are pulling that all apart well i " Leap frog" on to the top of the log and Adam SORTA follows we sit there for a while i lean on him a bit he leans on me we mainly just sit there in siliance enjoying the night. We talk a bit more. I give him a crybaby. It's a REALLY REALLY sour gum he was trying to read the wrapper so i took it from him and stuck it in his mouth. He FREAKED he was liek SOUR IT'S SOUR! ^_^ I could tell he wanted to wrap his arms around me like he used to cus i would feel his move adn then maybe see his fingers out of the corner of my eye. I wish he would have held it would have been really nice. Then i turned around and faced him and we talked he started to get horny  and me to ten he played with my boobs for a second then he kissed me after a few seconds i broke it though. OMG i took his PSP and wanted to see what time it was and i was trying to turn it on...i was holding it upside down....T_T lol but ANYWAY i cam home told Zack about everything and he was cool with it...but anyway...i got grounded to limited everything because i was out until 9 and it was DARK DARK and i didnt tell her...oh well... OH YAH i still have his bennie he i took it off his head WITH PERMISSION! and i tried to take it backbut he wasn't home so i still haz it ima take a picha and put it onn here it's a kick ass bennie.

Well ima go talk to Zack. I love yallll

Kayty

So here is my first post on Vox. I used to have a Vox....i was a best tester for the original..T_T but for soemreason i cant log in so i made a new one. Vox got me blogging bigtime. I have used SOOO meany different types of blogs but i guess you can never forget your past. ^_^ lol So i guess since this is my first post i will put a bit about me then make a second post about my horribal day....WOW great way to kick off a new blog right? lol ANYWAY... im not so good at introdouctions or about me's. How can you make an about me about your self when you arn't even sure who YOU are? So i guess you see my problem in this so i will name random things about me...you will read it and we will all feel better about our selfs now wount we?

So my name is Kayty...short for Kaytlyn. My dad says i was named agter some cartoon carr bwecause he loved taht cartoon. My mom says it's because they both loved the name and because it ment Pure in Celtic....so what ever. Yes my parents are still together but there are times when i wish they really wern't it might actully make my life better. But in the long run im glad they are still together. I never was a geek i was a sport's person who loved beign out side evereymoment of everyday. But i starded geting on mor eadn more playign Unreal T 04 and from there slowly stoped goign out side....lol not that im complaining. I love my coumputer and internet acess >.< lol I am homeschooled i have been since the 4th grade i am surrently a Freshman ( 9th grader) and have only a few friends that live in the same state as me. I have friends all over the world and i have the letters and packages to prove it. lol My boyfriend and the guy i am promised to lived in Oragen i live in Indiana. Thats about 2,124 miles apart thats just how far from Capital to Capital..and like any other online relantion ship we go though alot of hell form not beign to see one another all the time. But i guess shit happens right? Gotta make do with what you have for now. I was a cutter a bad one until one night i was upset pretty badly and cut once it wasn't enough so i did it again and i couldnt get the bleeding to stop for 10 min to i had to get help. I said i was never going to cut myself again unless it was a scarfactaion. Well  this last week has played hell on me. Tonight through me over the edg so i did it again i had been thinking and almost yerning to do it again for a while well i cut back open the scar shachpaed like a heart and yah...so i guess that makes mea cutter again? Im not sure. But in the long run i don't really care. Back to the about me......i love music i live for music. If it wasn't for music i don't think i would be here today. I mean that 100% no second thoughts no nothing music is my first and top most love. My mom is no joke here scared to take my music away. She takes EVERYTHIGN and i mean EVERYTHIGN away from me but my music. Because she doesn't know how i will act after a few days with out it. I don't have a fav band i have a fav band of the week though! lol i find soo much  new music and i just listin to it over and over again. I listin to ALOT of forgin  stuff to mainly German and Asian ( all types form there) i also watch ALOT of anime like crazy alot. One of my FAV ones though is Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann it just cam out this year and it TOTTALY underground but I LOVE IT. What els tosay...i do alot of Photography adn graphic design and i CAN do myspace div overlay layouts their just not my fav thing to do. I used to paly soccer...but we didnt have the money to put me back in and so they just never did so yah....soccer if my fav sport toplay my fav sports to watch are Hockey,Rugby and Soccer and SOMETIMES American football mainly the superbowel though GO COLTS FOR 07!! YAY lol ^_^ Well i guess thats enough about me...i WILL keep up on this blog...i have to i cant keep this boodled up anymore....even though most of it wont make any sense to all of you i just need to get it off my chest...

Love ya
Kayty